Mercedez Holtry – “Trapped Room” (IWPS 2014)

Button Poetry Channel on YouTube is one my favorite Channels that I have ever come across . A day can not go without watching a new mind blowing video from thee amazing talented poets and I learn so many things from them.I am glad to have discovered this  beauty of art , it is so beautiful, raw and everything. ❤

Today I want to share this mind blowing, powerful and beautiful poem called “Trapped Room” from Mercedez Holtry

Do enjoy!

The Writer’s Block


The Writer’s Block

It is like being trapped in a hole

So dark, you can’t see anything

You want to scream your lungs out

For someone to come to your rescue

But you are afraid because not everyone understand that feeling

You keep telling yourself that it is okay

Just to hush the voices in your head

You count the days, days became months

Nothing is okay, because you cannot do something you dearly love

And you are in the corridors of uncertainty whether to give up or not

Because the hole keeps getting darker and seem more deeper

It hurts so much and I don’t want to be trapped in this hole anymore

I want to see light and write and be whole again

For the past months I have been battling, beating myself trying so hard to do my very best, but time to time I failed and disappointed myself because I could not write. It was like something is blocking my creative thoughts, it’s like they are frozen or something. I would sleep late at night staring at the blank pages in my book, and wake up in the morning just to stare at the very same blank pages again, trying to win the battle. It is a feeling filled with anger and frustration and by writing this I wanted to open up to myself. To try and describe how is like when  the one thing that you deeply enjoy doing(writing) and love so whole-heartedly , you slowly start to feel disconnected to , but with time things do get better and I feel like I am slowly winning the battle these days.

(c) Bonolo Bridget Nkoketsang, 2015

Picture : Myself


I close my eyes with guilt

I sleep with numbed heart

Wish I could have been there for you

I wake up with fear

Fear, of not knowing how you really felt

For I would never have the time to thank you properly

For your love, kindness and friendship

You left me with this sinking feeling I cannot describe

With the memories of you and I

That hold hostage of me every night

Some replaying like a beautiful movie

Us being lead characters

You were the precious rose

Inside my golden garden

With a scent that left

Unforgettable trails

Trails I now wish to follow

And lead me to where you at

Wish I could stop these tears

From falling from my eyes

But I cannot

Because remembering that I would never see your face

Butcher my heart into pieces

If we were to meet in my dreams

I would beg you to stay

I would beg you to give me one moment

To just be with you

To smile and laugh our last laughs’ at nothingness

To tease and praise each other

Like we always did

I would beg you to stay my friend

For one more chance to say goodbye

Keep sleeping so well P Girl

To my dearest lovely friend P, i wrote this poem the other day regretting how I may have not understood your pain maybe is because you smiled lot, so i thought you are okay, like you always said ” I am okay, Bonolo”.  Still trying to understand why you, such a strong soul more than I. Keep resting well, its been 5 years now. I dearly miss you friend. 😦

Rihanna And Kanye West And Paul McCartney – FourFiveSeconds

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I look into the mirror

I see someone different

Someone I am ashamed to look at

I then sloppily lower my eyes down

I look again, it aggressively break apart

Its pieces scattering everywhere

Leaving blood of pain

And scares as a reminder

Splitting my life into halves:

The Before and the After

I looked at the left pieces

Just to be broken apart

By me fading beauty

by: Bonolo. B Nkoketsang (2014)