I close my eyes with guilt
I sleep with numbed heart
Wish I could have been there for you
I wake up with fear
Fear, of not knowing how you really felt
For I would never have the time to thank you properly
For your love, kindness and friendship
You left me with this sinking feeling I cannot describe
With the memories of you and I
That hold hostage of me every night
Some replaying like a beautiful movie
Us being lead characters
You were the precious rose
Inside my golden garden
With a scent that left
Unforgettable trails
Trails I now wish to follow
And lead me to where you at
Wish I could stop these tears
From falling from my eyes
But I cannot
Because remembering that I would never see your face
Butcher my heart into pieces
If we were to meet in my dreams
I would beg you to stay
I would beg you to give me one moment
To just be with you
To smile and laugh our last laughs’ at nothingness
To tease and praise each other
Like we always did
I would beg you to stay my friend
For one more chance to say goodbye
Keep sleeping so well P Girl
To my dearest lovely friend P, i wrote this poem the other day regretting how I may have not understood your pain maybe is because you smiled lot, so i thought you are okay, like you always said ” I am okay, Bonolo”. Still trying to understand why you, such a strong soul more than I. Keep resting well, its been 5 years now. I dearly miss you friend. 😦
